So another one begins...

New Year's day, birthdays and the beginning of a new school year highlight the passage of time for me.  Another school year begins for the boys today and as always, I am all happy, sad, relieved and sad again.
Happy that they will continue to learn and grow.  But on the flip side, the more they grow, the more they become independent and there may come a time when they won't need me anymore and that I cannot help solve all their problems.  I am relieved to get them out of the house as these last few days, there have been times when they seem to be sick of each other.  I am sorry to say there were moments when I have turned into snarling mommy and time had to be spent in all of our separate rooms.  But then I circle back to sad with the thought that we would have to get back into our school time groove instead of the go with the flow summer we have had.

Happy that they get to see friends they have missed over the summer, or make new friends as the case would be for my kindergartener.  Sad that in time, I won't be their best friend anymore.  Relieved that I won't have to think up stuff to keep them occupied.  Sad that I won't have to  think up stuff to keep them occupied.

It is only the first day of school, but I think I will be riding this emotional roller coaster for a while...for a few days...for a few years...maybe forever.  That's motherhood for you and I wouldn't have it any other way.